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Violent Absence of Love

by Small Words

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1.
Free Time 03:20
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Breathing in your skin In perfect weather Is this how it ends? For the better? Cause my confidence Is plagued with doubt I’m falling in Are you falling out? And it feels too good To not be right Could I be the good excuse To fan the flame and reignite? I’m not trying to take up All your free time You could come and kick it In the mean time I’m not trying to dig up all My demons I’m just looking for a Deeper meaning Pull the pin again The tie’s un-severed I’ll take it on the chin With pleasure But my confidence It’s plagued with doubt I’m losing it My secrets out And it feels too good To not be right Yeah? Yeah right I’m not trying to take up All your free time You could come and kick it In the mean time I’m not trying to dig up all My demons I’m just looking for a Deeper meaning I don't mind if you stay a little bit longer You’re so close Yet so far away The bad thoughts have only been getting stronger Locked in the house everyday I’m not trying to take up All your free time You could come and kick it In the mean time I’m not trying to dig up all My demons I’m just looking for a Deeper meaning I don't mind if you stay a little bit longer
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Mile a Minute 03:36
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It's a gamble But I’m all or nothing Get a handle And stand for something Because I know what they'll say Through the grapevine When they see that I can't Walk a straight line You were my high And I was your curse Sever those ties Before it gets worse Are we moving too fast Should we flip it reverse? Spinning out At a mile a minute Spinning, spinning out At a mile a minute now Candy-quoted “Lovers” take their buyouts Auto-motive Lives with no route We both know what they’ll say When we take flight... You were my high And I was your curse Sever those ties Before it gets worse Are we moving too fast Should we flip it reverse? Spinning out At a mile a minute Spinning, spinning out At a mile a minute now When I dream I’m falling down When I scream I don't make a sound Does it mean I’m stalling Saving face Before I hit the ground? You were my high And I was your curse Sever those ties Before it gets worse Are we moving too fast Should we flip it reverse? Spinning out At a mile a minute Spinning, spinning out At a mile a minute now When I dream I’m falling down When I scream I don't make a sound
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Foxhole 03:30
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Driving off course Back in the saddle Theres blood in my mouth I’m talking too fast The tower of babble I don’t need faith And I don’t want power... I’m burdened with thoughts That burst and bloom And might devour Us whole Two halves Three words we can’t take back Chaos Arms crossed Tried to make a wisecrack Face down Fed up All this shallow chitchat Star-crossed Sweet hearts I hate it when you say Young love isn’t love Is it love? Easy Love? Walking the dog But losing the battle Head in the clouds Spring in my step I might unravel But i don’t need fate Counting the hours So settle down quick Even the score Find shelter in a foxhole Two halves Three to one, a setback Chaos Arms crossed Attempting to make contact Face down Fed up “I’m sorry” feels too abstract Star crossed Sweet heart I hate it when you say Young love isn’t love Is it love? Easy love?
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Cincinatti 03:21
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I wrote my number with a pen I would love to have a friend Or we could tie up our loose ends If you wanted to I've got no semblance of a mind But you could read it if you'd like Look, I ain't got nothing else better to do I’m fucked up in Cincinnati I’m hanging on by a thread I wanted to make you happy I needed to fix my head I err to the caution With rugged exhaustion Yet I try to soften My tight grip In a room with a view I’m about to fall through With a bottle of booze When the scales tip I’m fucked up in Cincinnati I’m hanging on by a thread I wanted to make you happy I needed to fix my head I loved the way you said it I knew just what you meant I felt it as I faded "Some things you can't prevent" I’m fucked up in Cincinnati I’m hanging on by a thread I wanted to make you happy I needed to fix my head
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Danger 03:17
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Now we’re only in Danger, danger Feeling like I met a stranger, stranger I thought love was in my nature But its only in my head Getting lonely in my bed I’m craving human contact Anticipating impact Reorganize the syntax My crippling desire Has set itself on fire I wear a smile as a disguise Because you jumble up my insides I’ll never show it on the outside But I’m in your line of fire Hoping that it might inspire a little Danger, danger Feeling like I’ve been a stranger, stranger I thought love was in my nature, nature But its only in my head Getting lonely in my bed Now we’re only in I watched it play out like a car crash One you admire when you think back Because, regardless of the whiplash It was a gift to have survived it Could've robbed me of my life And yet i’d trade it for a new chance A circumstantial shot at romance It may not seem like much at first glance But I want to feel alive So could we have another try at Danger, feeling like I’ve been a stranger I thought love was in my nature But it’s only in my head, feeling lonely in my bed Now we’re only in danger Feeling like my, feeling like my mind is wandering outside of this Outside of itself
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Traffic 03:27
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The future's on its way But it's stuck in traffic You know I only want love When it's automatic Pull me up Pull me out Till I see the light Let me in Let me through To the other side Where everybody's got it better than me And I can feel like I am finally free When they ask me if it makes me happy I can finally agree I can finally agree, yeah I'm coming in fast, but I'm never in first (You baby, anything for you) And I want it so bad, even though it might hurt (You baby, you, you, baby) Anything for you The futures on its way But it's stuck in traffic I only want love... And so I rush fourth to fill the gap Third strike without a match Second glance no turning back There's no turning back I'm coming in fast, but I'm never in first (You baby, anything for you) And I want it so bad, even though it might hurt (You baby, you, you, baby) Anything for you Poor me Pour me in your drink, and darling Tell me what you really think about me Poor me Pour me in your drink, and darling Tell me what you really think about me I'm coming in fast, but I'm never in first (You baby, anything for you) And I want it so bad, even though it might hurt (You baby, you, you, baby) Anything for you Poor me, poor me, poor me, poor me Pour me in your drink, and darling Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me What you really think about me
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Spectrum 03:51
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I think somebody's got it out for me Am I in a comedy or tragedy Why do I feel numb? You’re questioning your sexuality Finding harmony to the melody It’s all a spectrum I took a little too much And I’m waiting it out I said something I shouldn’t have said out loud I know no better I want to say I love you But I’m having my doubts I think that you can feel it And it’s bringing you down I know that Something within me is broken Something within me is gone Something within me has never Ever been Been around at all I’ve been going deep in the fantasy Meet me on the edge of the galaxy Let’s figure out where we came from Yeah, I Took a little too much and I’m waiting it out I said something I shouldn’t have said out loud I know now know better I want to say I love you But I’m having my doubts I think that you can feel it And it’s bringing you down I know that If we are who we are Then forewarned is forearmed Something within me is broken Something within me is gone Something within me has never Ever been Been around at all Something within me is hazy Something within me is cheap And I think it needs replacing Before it ruins me I just need a good excuse To break out the bottle Just one good excuse So break out the bottle Something within me is broken Something within me is gone Something within me has never Ever been Been around at all Something within me is hazy Something within me is cheap And I think it needs replacing Before it ruins me
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No Love 03:47
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No love (Till the back and forth Starts to drive you crazy) No love (just a matter of time Till you start to hate me) No love (With a knack to pull back And push up daisies) No love, no love, no love I lost my faith in the new age Found God in pills I took back stage Nobody noticed the ghost Of my former self I only wanted to break up Trial and error, then make up Another year at most Till you free yourself We’ve got no love Till the back and forth Starts to drive you crazy No love Just a matter of time Till you start to hate me No love With a knack to pull back And push up daisies No love, no love, no love I found my place in the new age I took what I could carry to my grave It was all I could hope for, and all you could say Is "I'm glad that it worked out, its no Hemingway.." And now I’m back in the dog days Drunk off my demons, and sideways Another year at most Till I free myself... We’ve got no love Till the back and forth Starts to drive you crazy No love Just a matter of time Till you start to hate me No love With a knack to pull back And push up daisies No love, no love, no love
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Pioneer Spirit 03:08
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We’re flawed Young and ambitious I was in deep God as my witness Love was a home With the wolves kicking down the back door So now I run fast Snarled, and vicious Coconut-skulled Begging for your forgiveness Hate was the parts of myself I wish I could leave out I’ve got a little money for the weekend I’m gonna give it up Live it up Give it up, yeah Until we find that dead end I’ve got that pioneer spirit On god You were transcendent Holding your gaze Gave me double vision Love was a home With the wolves kicking down the back door We learn to live fast Throttle the engine I come alive When I’m sinkin’ my teeth in Hate was the parts of myself I wish I could leave out I’ve got a little money for weekend I’m gonna give it up Live it up Give it up, yeah Until we find that dead end I’ve got that pioneer spirit Consume excess information Poke holes, and seek explanation Find truth in mystification Wait, did I forget to mention Death to all organization? When they ask whats the occasion: Pi-pi-pioneer spirit I’ve got a little money for the weekend I’m gonna give it up Live it up Give it up, yeah Until we find that dead end I’ve got that pioneer spirit
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Pretty Madness 04:08
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I’ve been thinking about progress I’ve been falling behind I’ve been putting up roadblocks While I’m losing my mind Getting heavy in my head Feel like living is a curse Cause when it gets bad It might only get worse In a state of unrest You can only reverse Symptoms feel like they’re The center of the universe Jolie folie, vous (Pretty madness, you) Are running me up and down Running me up and down Running me, running me Up and up and Jolie folie a deux (Pretty madness for two) I’ve been thinking about death Looking back on all my close calls I’ve been thinking about love Scared it might mean nothing at all Getting heavy in my head Feel like living is a hearse Its only been bad It might only get worse In a state of unrest I can only reverse Now my symptoms are The center of the universe Jolie folie, vous (Pretty madness, you) Are running me up and down Running me up and down Running me, running me Up and up and Jolie folie a deux (Pretty madness for two) I didn’t mean to tell you that much I didn’t mean to say so little I only wanted love as a crutch I should've known it’s reverential Jolie folie, vous (Pretty madness, you) Are running me up and down Running me up and down Running me, running me Up and up and Jolie folie a deux (Pretty madness for two)
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Epitaph 03:58
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I don't wanna come back down Could you carry me? Low light I’m always living through the present To make hindsight Throw me a life line I’d rather go out clinking glasses to the twilight And a place like this don't have mirrors But a place like this got bad blood And a violent absence of color Is a violent absence of love I wrote the epitaph Of a split decision Photograph But i lack the vision Autograph My headstone I wanna laugh Wanna love But don't I don't wanna come back down So could you carry me? Could you carry me? Something don't feel right, yeah? Nothing really good is ever finite I wanna take flight I’m going so far off the grid I’ll be a satellite And a place like this don't have mirrors But a place like this got bad blood And a violent absence of color Is a violent absence of love Violent Absence of Love I wrote the epitaph Of a split decision Photograph But i lack the vision Autograph My headstone I wanna laugh Wanna love But don't
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On the Way Out 03:48
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There was a car crash in my soul I drove myself into a hole I hope they Love me on the way out I see a bouquet in the street I guess, I think it's time to leave But will you Love me on the way out? Honey I was calling from the afterlife I'm hoping that there's something we could reignite Would you Love me on the way out? Honey was I only ever wasting time Killing myself just to wait in line? Or will you Love me on the way out? I was afraid to stay But If there's no other way That I could feel okay Well, then, okay There was a car crash in the bed I'm trapped inside my thoughts again Fuck, would you Love me on the way out? Honey I was calling from the afterlife I'm hoping that there's something we could reignite Would you Love me on the way out? Honey was I only ever wasting time Killing myself just to wait in line? Or will you Love me on the way out? Was I only ever wasting time? Honey I was calling from the afterlife (Honey I was calling) I'm hoping that there's something we could reignite (Honey I was hoping and wishing And missing the way it felt to be around you) Would you Love me on the way out? Honey was I only ever wasting time (Honey was i wasting time?) Killing myself just to wait in line? Or will you (Killing myself around a moment Killing myself around it all?) Love me on the way out? I'm just tired of feeling like I need to leave I know you're sick of wondering what is up my sleeve I'm just tired of feeling like I can't breathe I feel so empty
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Like They Used To 05:01
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Stay in my bed All day again Coming over On the midnight train Say whatever you have on your brain Your eyes Stare through The cracks In time and space I guess that I’ll miss my shot Sunsetting Tripping on acid I met up with your friends They said some shit That I didn't vibe with We tried Its not right Out of time If I had one more chance I would let it slip by Alright, yeah right (Mmm, love) They dont make lovers like they used to No more They used to, they used to, no? (Mmm, walls) Back before our walls were bulletproof They were bulletproof Before you Late night Shake down My baggage comes out, I’m Tryna find another point of view Hoping for another big breakthrough I feel like Dancing You’re moving Head shakin’ Well? Did miss my shot? (Mmm, love) They dont make lovers like they used to No more They used to, they used to, no? (Mmm, walls) Back before our walls were bulletproof They were bulletproof Before you

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A person seeking love and validation from everyone, and everywhere except themself.

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released November 11, 2022

Produced by:
Aaron Lindauer, and Zach Carroll

Written By:
Nick Long, Zach Carroll, Aaron Lindauer, and Daniel Glover

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Alternative Pop-Rock out of Indianapolis, IN

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