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Darling
02:16
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Darling, I am calling.
I'm locked outside
With someone else,
A fragment of my former self.
So darling, could you save me?
I'm not the type to ask for help,
But if you could I've never felt this way.
Lets get away.
I'm far too drunk to drive,
Do you think you could??
We took the back road
singing ladadadada
To a song I've never heard before
Darling, you're so stunning
Focused on the road ahead,
The music is blaring in my head,
So darling, could you kiss me?
Your eyes have widened in their place
The smile quickly faded from your face
You say:
"You're far too drunk tonight.
Maybe it'd be best if we just talked..."
Maybe it'd be best.
I tend to over strain myself
With thoughts of life,
Love lost, and filth
Anxiety that makes me ill
Let it pile up, until it tilts
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2. |
Wither Away
03:01
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We were smoking
In my aunts house
You were hoping
I wouldn't bring you down
You know I've told you half a dozen times
These thoughts that live inside my mind
They eat away at everything
And ruin almost anything I have
I suppose that's my fault
And its my problem
But the problem is
I can't seem to solve it
So I lay in silence
And think instead
For the briefest of moments,
You understand
I am lost
And stuck within
Inner thoughts, bones, blood, and skin
A shoddy heart
That's mood depends
On whatever feeling my brain will send
Lower me down to my grave
I want to sleep through the pain.
Covered in mud from the rain,
Just let me wither away.
You can call me whatever you have to, to make this easier on you.
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3. |
Full House
02:54
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It was just a feeling
I was hoping would pass
A loose thread amidst a sweater
A small rip in a bag
Each minute felt like ages
Yet they passed and still it waited
If I asked you for a second,
You would give me a year
Watch me stumble through the wreckage
Mumble words in your ear
I keep pausing, hesitating
Losing sight of what I'm saying
Wait, what was I just saying?
She whispered "I love you", And I said
I'm so sorry for the mess,
I never meant to be like this
She screamed: "it's all inside your head,
my god, you do this to yourself.
You could have told me how you felt, and maybe talking could've helped
Sort out the hand that you were dealt..."
I watched the paint peel
On the window seal,
Easily comparing
The process to how I feel.
Pressure set in,
And eventually it cracked.
But you're still around,
Sketching pictures of the places we could go.
I'm such a mess,
Over analyzing everything I know.
It feels like I'm sitting back and waiting for my cue,
A whore sweating in the pews.
It's got nothing to do with you.
It's all me,
And my mind
That's eating me alive
Its always pushing out these thoughts
That ruin everything I like.
So I'll call, tonight.
You'll push all your plans aside
And I'll entertain the thought of leaving everything behind.
We burdened our beds
With soul mates,
To bulk up on better halfs.
Fantasizing love inside our heads.
The world is such a mystery,
It's weighing down on me
(I tried to wait it out,
But waiting gave birth to doubt,
And I couldn't sit around
Convincing myself to settle down.)
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4. |
Calm Down
02:42
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So, I was talking about you to someone else.
When you walked in the door,
I felt my self sink through the floor,
I never felt like this before...
But, you were looking at someone else that night.
A regular: shoot the bullshit, douchey type.
I must confess,
My jealousness felt like an arrow in my chest.
A shot of whiskey to soothe my lonely soul,
Smoke like a chimney to keep from growing old.
Who'd want to live in this godforsaken town?
Seems all it does these days is bring me down...
I'm sick like a dog,
But it's all in my head.
I tried to find peace,
But I'd rather be dead.
If you wanted the world,
All you had to do was ask.
But the weight of it all
Was too much for me,
The best of us give in eventually.
I try to move forward,
But get hung up on the past.
Calm down,
There's no sense in letting it get to you now.
There's no sense in losing
Every ounce of your health
In the end we're all just
trying to fend for ourselves
You could scream till your brain
grows too tired to find
any tangible reasons
left to ruin your night
There's no sense in losing
Every ounce of your health
In the end we're all just
trying to fend for ourselves
You could grind all your teeth,
Let it dwell in your mind.
But we'll all end up dead,
At the end of our ride.
So calm down
Never stop wasting your time
Most of the best parts in life
Come from the rubble
Of the wreckage in what's left of your mind
I forgot the punchline and croaked
Slurred through the words that I spoke
I set a thousand fucking alarms, but I never awoke.
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5. |
Broken In
04:45
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I wanted so much more,
I just couldn't face it.
I broke that door,
And never replaced it.
Washed up on shore,
So fucked up and faded.
I hated who I was.
And soon bones grew sore,
My muscles felt jaded.
My health was poor,
The stress reinstated.
I wanted so much more...
But instead I just waited,
And nothing ever changed
Judging by the scars
Etched into your legs
There was a time
You wished you were dead
Born with the fleeting sense of happiness
Carved deep in side your flesh.
But you've got so much left to live for
If not yourself, then other people
The impact of your presence makes
This world a better place
I never wanted to hurt no one
Packed up the sadness
And tried to run
Sat back and promised have some fun
Pretend to laugh
Pretend to laugh
You were golden then,
I was broken in.
Half hearted, living in my head
Left alone so I could dwell
On what I could have been
What I should have been!
Judging by the scars
Etched into your wrists,
There was a time you wished
You were dead.
Born with a fleeting sense of happiness
Carved deep inside your head.
But you had so much left to live for,
If not yourself, then other people
The impact of your presence made
This world a better place
You made this world a better place.
I was buying into something
That was quickly growing stale.
So I climbed the rope to opt out,
But got tangled up somewhere.
Now I'm dangling,
Nervously flailing.
Until I finally lose my grip,
And I fall right back into this mess
For what it's worth,
For what? it's worthless.
I said sorry more than I said I loved you...
I kept thinking, and I kept digging this hole.
I said sorry more than I said I loved you...
Rest those eyelids, my head's never silent
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Small Words Indianapolis, Indiana
Alternative Pop-Rock out of Indianapolis, IN
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